*allen, ragen, arthur

seperti jebakan

aku tau siapa yang mengancam

karena aku yang mengundang mereka

sekarang, aku harus menyingkirkannya satu persatu

seperti waktu kamu terkena pecahan kaca.

kamu harus mecabut pecahannya, satu-per-satu

hati - hati

menekan perih, supaya semua bisa beres lagi.aa

 

*dasar ceroboh

 

Fall Down - CALLmeKAT

Released: Fall Down (Album)

All music and lyrics written by CALLmeKAT

© CALLmeKAT

Tell me something new
Enlighten this dull conversation
And show me your point of you
Or just one really good reason

Why I should kiss you
Give in
Fall down
From my high horse

Do you really want to be
In this overcrowded heart
I have something else to do
And we âre so far apart

Give me more than smoke and mirrors
Supply me with a view too beautiful to fake
And save me from this embracing fear of
Missing out on chances I should take

Now should i kiss you
Give in
Fall down
From my high horse

Do you really want to be
In this overcrowded heart
I have something else to do
And we are so far apart

When you lie there I dont know what to say
All my bright thoughts they slip way

Skating over shaky ground
Trying not to fall apart

 

*** gue beneran musti nahan diri buat ga slow dance on a trance mode kalo dengerin lagu ini, oh i feel like wanna die and arise from the death**

* I thought, perfect moment dengerin lagu ini kalo lo di atap gedung (misfits scene!), smoking, drinking the night slowly consuming the late sun , holding hands.

mengingat waktu yang terus menerus berkejaran..distant crowds.

 

I guess.
I am falling a apart.
Sigh.
I am killing the idea of having a family.
I can't picture anything abt it.
It's all about trust, respect and LOVE? Yeah right
I don't get it.
Talk to my ass. Talk to ur God.
Because I believe my God, won't creates people as stupid as us.
What to hold onto? It s a big nonsense.
We are all losers, dear.
We are all.
You're born with a big shiny LOOSERs markings on ur head.
And so do I. Because we are a family.
Agree?
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Family (?)

Another random thought on Sunday morning.

I've just realize to questioned again the concept of family actually.

Maksud gue, keluarga inti lo.
Well, dibandig beberapa temen, I'm lucky enough I still have my family in complete term.
Mom, dad, brother, sister.

Tapi gue juga baru nyadar, kenapa gue sedikit ngerasa ga belong dengan my 'family'

I barely living with my complete team only 12yrs.
Sama mama, abang dan kakak perempuan gue. Ama bokap malah cm 8th. Karena di 12th gue tinggal di rumah itu 4 tahunnya bokap kerja di kapal pesiar, travelling around the world.

Dari sejak gue keluar rumah pertama kali itu, 18 tahun yang lalu. Cuma 2 tahun gue sempet satu atap lagi ama nyokap, itu juga ada waktu-waktu gue ke Jakarta, bandung, kuningan, beberapa bulanm

So. Apa konsep keluarga yang gue kenal, kalau semuanya berceceran? Hihi.

Di hampir 30 tahun hidup gue, hanya kurang lebih 1/3 'nya yang gue punya bareng keluarga inti.

Ah, tapi this is better daripada engga sama sekali or kaya teman gue, cuma setaun tinggal bareng nyokap, ama bokap ga pernah. Dia tinggal bareng kakek neneknya.

I promise, kalo gue punya anak, I'll do my best to make them feel belong to their family =)

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Fifth-May

Terkadang datang hari aku tercekik cemburu pada angin dingin yang memelukmu atau pada guling di kasurmu.

#factfict
#mendendam rindu.

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