Dear Brother,

I always wanted to bumped your head, just to see are you really a human or a goblin. 

again, I am questioning my existence  in this very community, relationship, family, friendship and ...earth

*iki tak awut-awut wae piye

*garuk-garuk*

DON'T WHINE!

I hate people whines all the time.

I mean whining is okay in a moderate amount. BUT FOR FUCK SAKE.

It's should not be like 24/7

Okay, I am whining here to hear you whining. 

**

produk emosi adalah...perut yang riuh dengan gas, kepala cekot2 dan kesulitan memejamkan mata

*here I am, ranting and decided to be a SR on MDM forgos.

my skin burnt from the touch. disgusted by the voice. irritate by the air.

who needs the subject?

I say..ssh silence, heart. Head, please takes over.

I  am so full of anger,  all I can hear is my own heart beats in a full volume, rapidly.

jangan kau lupakan

suka lupa kalau keluarga gue itu....GEMBLUNG. 

hahahaha

BIAR KEJADIAN ---- COMING SOON

1. Nepal

2. Ekuador - Kepulauan Galapagos

AMIN

Saya bersyukur. 

Banyak hal-hal material yang bisa buat saya bersyukur. =D

Dengan semua kekurangan yang saya punyai, saya bersyukur. 

Found an old letter from an ex.
When we both still fell in love.
My friend tells me to always questioning everything. My brain fried, my body refuse to spare it.
I guess I have to learn to let go.
Accepting that we can always fall in or fall out ..of shitty lil thing called love

King of cynical on speech

To whom ever who read this. I had enough with the interactive soc med.
So, I might be going to put the blog on restricted mode.
So, you may made your choices here.  Teach yourself not to mind about what do I feel abt this and that.

7hrs to go

2nd trip. Different shit.

Macem anak babi gue. Lucu tapi najiss

Subjek

"after a while and so many times.

It feels like, yeah OK

I'll just put my mask on and carry on. "

Daryl Hall And John Oates - She's Gone

Hajar!

"I'm A Broken Heart"

Cry,
As much I want to weep,
I know I can't have you,
I wipe my tears away, away.

I try, I try, I try, I try,

Wish, wish for the summer
Want, to pull over under,
I wipe my tears away, away.

I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try to make the best at happiness.

I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
My love is bleeding;
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
An empty feeling.

I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try to make do with more more of less.

All, all of our moments have,
Just become ailments,
I'm haunted all of every day.

I try, I try, I try, I try,

Ache, aching and teething,
My, big love is bleeding,
I think I might be dying.

I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try to make the best at happiness.

I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
My love is bleeding;
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
An empty feeling.

I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,

I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
My love is bleeding;
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
I'm a broken heart,
An empty feeling.

I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,
I try, I try, I try, I try,

(The Bird and The Tree)

F#cking Boyfriend

Dimana gue pas The Bird and The Bee keluar?

Sibuk kali. 

Sama kaya sekarang, sibuk ngatur nafas-dada-hati-kepala. 

***

new list: The Bird and The Bee. 

Dan ini itu anu. Iya. Engga.
Dengar.diam.terserahlah.
Tertawalah. Jangan.
Diam. Diam saja.
Iya. Mati.
Nah. Selesai

Sisaan dari 2011

Suatu pagi di bandara Tan Son Nhat International, bersama rombongan Kere Hore, Gue  lagi bingung, udah pake kacamata, tapi kok tetep burem. Dan terjadilah percakapan ini:

Gue : "Ini gue pake kacamata kok tetep burem ya? apa nambah minus gue"

Rombongan: " oh iya kali, nambah minusnya"

--terus semua diam. Gue ga yakin kalau minus gue nambah, dan rombongan ngeliatin gue dan nampaknya juga ngerasa ada yang salah--

Yenni si Kakak: "Uuum. Kayanya, kacamata lo yang kiri ga ada lensanya deh"

--DOEEEENG!--- hahahahha. Kacamata gue lensanya copot sebelaah!

Survival Notes: Even Machete Improvises.

=)

a slight "effin you* to you

I don't know that I hate this ex of mine so much.

I got his notification on my facebook for friend request.

And my 1st reaction was FUCK YOU in the head.

I was a fool once to fell in love with him and drowned at my own foolishness.

What makes me upset  is maybe he is the only guy I ever fell in love with. 

haha

Same Love - Macklemore ft Mary Lambert

When I was in the third grade I thought that I was gay,
'Cause I could draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight.
I told my mom, tears rushing down my face
She's like "Ben you've loved girls since before pre-k, trippin' "
Yeah, I guess she had a point, didn't she?
Bunch of stereotypes all in my head.
I remember doing the math like, "Yeah, I'm good at little league"
A preconceived idea of what it all meant
For those that liked the same sex
Had the characteristics
The right wing conservatives think it's a decision
And you can be cured with some treatment and religion
Man-made rewiring of a predisposition
Playing God, aw nah here we go
America the brave still fears what we don't know
And God loves all his children, is somehow forgotten
But we paraphrase a book written thirty-five-hundred years ago
I don't know

And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm

If I was gay, I would think hip-hop hates me
Have you read the YouTube comments lately?
"Man, that's gay" gets dropped on the daily
We become so numb to what we're saying
A culture founded from oppression
Yet we don't have acceptance for 'em
Call each other faggots behind the keys of a message board
A word rooted in hate, yet our genre still ignores it
Gay is synonymous with the lesser
It's the same hate that's caused wars from religion
Gender to skin color, the complexion of your pigment
The same fight that led people to walk outs and sit ins
It's human rights for everybody, there is no difference!
Live on and be yourself
When I was at church they taught me something else
If you preach hate at the service those words aren't anointed
That holy water that you soak in has been poisoned
When everyone else is more comfortable remaining voiceless
Rather than fighting for humans that have had their rights stolen
I might not be the same, but that's not important
No freedom till we're equal, damn right I support it

(I don't know)

And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm

We press play, don't press pause
Progress, march on
With the veil over our eyes
We turn our back on the cause
Till the day that my uncles can be united by law
When kids are walking 'round the hallway plagued by pain in their heart
A world so hateful some would rather die than be who they are
And a certificate on paper isn't gonna solve it all
But it's a damn good place to start
No law is gonna change us
We have to change us
Whatever God you believe in
We come from the same one
Strip away the fear
Underneath it's all the same love
About time that we raised up... sex

And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
And I can't change
Even if I tried
Even if I wanted to
My love
My love
My love
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm
She keeps me warm

Love is patient
Love is kind
Love is patient
Love is kind
(not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I'm not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I'm not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
(not crying on Sundays)
Love is kind
(I'm not crying on Sundays)
Love is patient
Love is kind

https://soundcloud.com/macklemore/macklemore-x-ryan-lewis-same

few tricks how to handle stain

Got this from Internet.

Put it here, so it will be easier for me to find.  

I am miss sloppy but I am an adult, so I should be responsible for the damages. 

Coffee & Tea: Pour boiling water through the stain from the back of the fabric.

Glue: When your little cherub comes in with the neatest bean picture you've ever seen, and more glue on their good shirt than on the paper, don't worry. Just hang the artwork on the refrigerator, and soak the shirt in warm water with 3 tablespoons of vinegar. Rinse well.

Gum: Rub an ice cube over the gum until it stiffens, and peel it off.

Ink: Where is that pocket protector when you need it? Ah well, most regular inks come out in the wash, but just in case, try applying hairspray liberally to the stain and rub with a clean, dry cloth.

Lipstick: Soften by rubbing with petroleum jelly {Vaseline} to 'float' the stain. Sponge with hydrogen peroxide or denatured alcohol.

Mildew: This one can be really tough, so you'll want to treat it while it's still fresh if at all possible. Here are a few suggestions; 1)Try soaking the fabric in white vinegar. 2) Blot on lemon juice and salt and let the fabric set in the sunshine. 3) Blot on hydrogen peroxide repeatedly. 4) For the really desperate, try soaking the fabric in sour milk or buttermilk overnight.

Mud: Let dry completly, brush off. Soak fabric in 1/4 cup detergent and enough water in a bowl to cover for 1 to 2 hours. Wash as usual.

Oily Stains: Try applying cornstarch and water as a paste. Let dry and brush off.

Protein Based Stains: Most foods {eggs, fish, meat} are handled the same way - plenty of cold water to soak to stain out. Don't use hot or even warm water as it will set the stain. The old meat tenderizer trick works fairly well too, just apply as a paste, let set 15 to 30 minutes, and wash in cold water.

source: https://www.facebook.com/pages/Wasserij/472151476187152

Burnt

Gue kalau udah ga suka sama orang ya, ga ada namanya basa basi.

Apalagi kalau sama sekali ga punya kepentingan.

Nehi.

Ga bangga si sama adat gue ini. 

Kalau dianalogiin, gue semacam gadget yang punya banyak colokan buat banyak fungsi.

Kalau salah satu colokan cuma bikin gue panas dan bisa bikin gue korslet, mendingan dicabut dan lupakan.

Gue tau ini kekanak-kanakan, but heck, gue idup cuma sekali dan controlnya ada di gue juga. 

Because to ignore you is my talent. 

morning rant

Sometimes I just want to dig my own grave and bury myself alive

Then at some moments, all I want is to slit your throat and bury you alive. 

I owe nothing, I count every scars we made and I pay it. Cash.

Burned. Delivered.

always. always makes me smile

credit : (nyomot dari Buzzfeed.com) 

the photo is not mine. 

**and ya, it's sad seeing the chain on the monkey's neck. their expression is priceless