Thought of the week :

 

-          Addicted to 3 songs  :

Better in time (Leona Lewis &  Boyce Avenue cover version), Hungover (Ke$ha, but I like Audrey & Gamaliel cover version better), Only Exception (Paramore & Lea Michele Cover Version, uum, I like both equally).  Tapi yang paling sering gue ulang-ulang ga berhenti itu Hungover-versi Audrey & Gamal. Its so touché. Haha.

 

-          I cannot concentrate at the office for specific. I worked like a zombie or a machine without any memory. I do my things, but in 15 minutes, I can't remember what the hell I did before. Shitte. It is sucks. Because every time my bosses ask me about the job, all I did just staring at him with a blank dork face. Trying so hard to push my brain recalling the memory until its hurts. I don't like being stupid. Or lost.

-          I am feeling in between. It is not that I am having that kind of bipolar mood disorder. But it does, sometimes I snapped at once on people but on the next moment I can laugh at the person reaction by my act. Right now, I tend to do something with rules, so I don't have to think, because I can't think. It's so frustrating, when I cannot recall information's that being held on the back of my head. I know I have the knowledges, but I can't recall it. It makes the situation double sucks.

So, that's one of the reasons why I'm developing my cooking hobby. I try to control my anxieties.

The recipe has the rules. And it is easy to be followed. I can do it in autopilot. I don't have to feel or think. Furthermore, it pleased people. It pleased the others.  I can gain my confidence by the appraisal I got from the baking.

Sigh.I need to do something with this. I have to. It's not right.