Rabu, 27 Maret 2013

Andaaaaaiii

...
Berandai-andai...
Kalau papa masih ada jam segini sama-sama belum bisa tidur,
Bikin indomie, ngopi bareng.
Atau..
Langsung pergi ke gudeg permata, membunuh waktu.
My Pop would order gudeg tahu krecek.
..
Tapi..

='(

--- I just miss my dad, I wish God would forgive me for this.
Udah dipanggil ke tempat enak masih dikangenin.
Ga nyalahin Tuhan kok, cuma kangen.
Nyuwun dijembar'ke sarean Papa nggih, Gusti. Amin.
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Pak AHA

Kangen Papaku.
Berantem eyel2an lagi ga papa deh.
Kesel2an gara2 dia sok tau, ga papa.
Gondok karena suka jorok buang sampah depan kamarnya. Ga papa
Apa aja deh.
Tapi Pak RW 03 udah tenang sekarang kan ya.
Nangis dikit ga papa kan ya?
Kangen doang, Pa.
Salam buat Mbah Tir kakung, mbah BuTir, Pakde Karno, Om Bin, dkk.

I love you, Pa.
I wish I have the chances to say it more often in my life.

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Senin, 18 Maret 2013

and so what?

Been thinking a lot lately. 
Eh gue mah mikir mulu deng, apa - apa juga dipikirin.
Yang baru kepikiran I am a late bloomer, temen - temen gue udah kemana - mana , gue masih di situ- situ aja.
Temen - temen gue maksudnya orang - orang yang gue kenal deket, gue looked up, gue jadiin patokan.
Suka ngerasa "man...idup macam apa iniih. masih berkutat sama hal-hal yang sama dari 7 tahun belakangan"
Tapi terus gue mikir lagi, and so what?
Terus apa? Terus kenapa kalo gue beda sama mereka?
Porsinya manusia beda - beda. I am looking for the fullest of my life. not the life according to someone else's life.


**bersyukur karena at least gue masih hidup, masih punya kesempatan untuk ngerasain disayang, dicintai, dirindukan, diinginkan.

Selasa, 05 Maret 2013

I wish I have the guts

It's been 2 hours I sit on the same toilet seat, before I helplessly sobbing. The life that I should cherished.
The love that I should be grateful for.
The edge.
It's not the death that I'm afraid the most. But the burden to disposed my remain body.
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